Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Friends.
Aren’t thoughts a reflection of how much people think or care about you?
Maybe some just let simple details pass them by… which means most to me.
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Or maybe I should fault myself instead.
Cos’ I’m not a good enough friend to them for their thoughts? But some things I have done my best. Being random the way I am, always thinking about them.
Everything’s led by my heart.
And sometimes I don’t know what I can do anymore.
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When complications set in, the wound aggravates.
Closed Book At... [11:14 AM]
Friday, September 25, 2009
Around my neck suspends a lonely chair, enclosed in a fine bronze closet.
The concept of isolation, with no intrusion.
Might just be a sweet escape I appreciate.
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I wanna occupy myself with what I love to do.
Dance, dance, dance. That is, if time permits. But it’s obviously not the case now.
I have forgotten how it feels like having the luxury of time.
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Drinking warm water at work. Kudos to me.
With a whole piece of nicely sliced mooncake. (which I’m gonna share with qiqi!) =D
Ya sure, DIET DIET DIET. Will ensure tiny lunch today!
When is coraline coming out?! coraline. coraline. coraline! =(
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LOVE 9PEE LOTS. <3
It feels great.
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And…
Sorry I had to be truthful to you.
Closed Book At... [9:02 AM]
Thursday, September 24, 2009
i hope...
you don't judge me.
it's tough enough and i'm struggling.
=/
boo. i feel fat. not gonna eat much.
please control.
Closed Book At... [11:27 AM]
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
not receiving VOUR text makes me feel weird.
it makes such a huge difference. really. =/
tiny lunch today, silly me today.
i wonder when's coraline coming out! it's been 5 days since the release date on 17th september!
i can't wait i can't wait!
=(
yes, maybe i regret.
Closed Book At... [1:07 PM]
Friday, September 18, 2009
the swapped roles?
sighs.
can i just stick with... simple and happy?
small simple simple things make me smile. big time.
smiled, just cos' i brought a mooncake to work. silly, i know.
hmmm...
and i realised i can chatter like nobody's business.
Closed Book At... [2:12 PM]
Thursday, September 17, 2009
what if... it's just under the pretext of the surface?
warped...
in a journey with endless questions.
Closed Book At... [4:25 PM]
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
i hid.
and
waterfalled.
Closed Book At... [1:41 PM]
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
mum truly loves me. =) although i might seem to 'bully' her at times, i love her too. guess that's pretty common with everyone?
asked mum to look out for my eyeliner.
instead of just looking out for me, she bought 2 of them, then she texted me.
'when you small i have to buy you pencil now you big already still need to buy you pencil.'
LOL RIGHT. SO FUNNY! =D
and recently, i feeel soooooooooo dammmm fat despite the daily crunches. and it's proven cos'... i really gained so much weight!
strictly no sweet stuff, no fatty foods! and... i'm not eating anymore!! I NEED TO RUN!
bye, and hi to TINY sausage bun for lunch.
Closed Book At... [10:20 AM]
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
too much complications involved.
sighs.
sighs. again.
BOOBOO. =(
the distance, the comfort... all matters.
everything really plays a part.
ok. bye. back to work. and ot-ing... slog myself away without dinner. =/
Closed Book At... [1:42 PM]
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
you said...
'as long as there's trust...'
i know... but. sighs.
and i guess all's accumulative and sparked from logical reasons which i truly understand and feel bad about.
thanks for the bona fide whole truth. though it did affect me, it means so much.
=)
i smiled at the texts. it's gonna be more than just well.
how about... AWESOME?! =)
and thanks... happy shark. thanks alot.
Closed Book At... [11:20 AM]
Monday, September 07, 2009
!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????
so many overwhelming feelings.
i just wanna shout out loud.
i'm not that kind of girl.
=(
my finger and feet hurts.
and some other part of me too.
the guitar's significance. the extra mile you'd go for me.
please. allow me to handle this on my own. i can't be selfish anymore.
i teared.
there's nothing left to be said. really?
i don't know what to say. it's impossible for the strong feelings in my heart to be conveyed into words. ultimately, i guess there's no explanations required, no explanations expected.
when people feel this way, there must be reasons. and i'm the reason for everything.. things i did, things i didn't do, words i said, words i did not say.
honestly, there was more i could have done. really could have. like that afternoon. but eventually, it was what i didn't do...
but if everything is so true, tell me why... only certain people have the ability to see through me completely? there must be a reason.
teach me how to pick up the pieces.
everything just comes crashing down on me. i don't have the slightest mood for anything now.
Closed Book At... [8:50 AM]
Friday, September 04, 2009
decision made. answered. there's no turning back now. i need to tell myself to look forward.
tell me it's that easy. tell me it's REALLY that easy.
hello. hello. what can i do? help me.
no one understands. no one ever will...
i feel like i can break down any moment.
do you really know what i want and how i feel?
happiness. it doesn't feel within my grip for now.
not gonna chomp today. no appetite.
can i just feel better soon? =/
Closed Book At... [10:59 AM]
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
i would really like to THANK everyone SO MUCH for my awesome birthday blast. hope you all had fun!! that's most important. =) and of cos' must enjoy the cakes too!
esp. BIG BIG BIG THANKS to my beloved 9p. i'm so sorry i think i wasn't a good host to you girls at all. i should have been more sensitive and it's been ages since i last seen you girls. i was just too caught up with many stuff.. and overlooked such important things. which i know, was wrong. really sorry.
the balloon decorations and specially arranged game. i enjoyed it tremendously, so much beyond words. the feeling is just so strong in my heart. i'm so appreciative of it.. and... yea. i know i'm bad at details cos' of impatient me. lousy right!
the soft spongy swiss roll, the fake shoelaces that look like edible fish strips, the lovely pretty and even CHEWY gummy bracelet on mel, my weird picture which didn't manage to appear on everyone's phone, the ridiculous 'aranda' rules (p.s. i bathed more than 10mins *gasp*) and...
the exclusive dot dot dot dot dot shoes with the LOVELY bling-studded swooooosh. =) nike shoes. it's none other than you, beloved 9p, who will put in so much effort... just for that day... just for me.
my regrets during the party... is that i didn't put aside other factors, to just enjoy myself, show my appreciation and spend enough time with you all. i will make it up for you girls someday k.. i feel really bad about it. but nonetheless, i'm so thankful and LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH. i'm sure you know it. hope you all felt it too. but so sorry i guess i didn't make you all feel that way... sighs. my bad. really. =/ anyway, i wanna say... i love the hugs and kisses from you all. =) thanks. LOVE ALOT!!
and also... thanks to nicole claire heng li jun, my baby, my flower sister, my baobao for.. the lovely and awesome kate spade BIG BIG BAG!! love it to bits. and love you to pieces. =) and esp. my other 3 flower sisters. clonie, da ling and qiqi!! thanks thanks. i sense the effort so strongly.
esp clonie.. for dressing up so well, even brought her guitar bag with a metal rod! qiqi... for such ROCKER make up. haha. da ling.. for being so tired but still turning up, staying up to party and of cos' taking care of me.
lovely presents from people like mei chin and kat.. the blazer and little brown bag! love them loads! =) and others - my fav boutique, river island vouchers from roy, juang, qiqi, py... clarins cream, sexy undies & pretty band from sam love... baileys and sweet strawberry cakes from loo, joce, tam, chris and xy. yea. i love cards/letters/notes... not to forget the cute starry dress from qiang and gf... and lovely gifts from iris and xiaomei... donuts from bingbing... etc. oh ya, and py for the dope speakers.
the fun, funny yet dumb charades and acting games to self-sung music. LOL. i laughed... alot! hope you all enjoyed too. we drank, we played, we sang, we had lightsticks... everything. and pple like andy, kw, bingbing, py, da ling, clonie, baby nicole and of cos' qiqi... they do the funniest and stupidest things ever. never fail to make me laugh at all. =)
and everyone else for the well wishes. =) it's sweet.
everything! really. i've learnt and started to appreciate everything so much. even the simplest things. like clonie, qiqi and roy going to buy ice and drinks with me... maybe it's true. i've grown up.
but... is this like a turning point in life? a phase of adulthood?
i don't know what i want anymore...
things have progressed to this state and i'm really confused and stressed now.
the timing is always wrong.
will i really be happy? is it as simple as it seems?
have you actually thought of what i need, whether i will really be happy this way?
please... do think. cos' i don't have an answer for now.
Closed Book At... [10:40 AM]
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