Wednesday, July 29, 2009
i am so so sorry. to everyone involved.
must understand that i feel very upset, terribly bad and guilty too. can’t describe this lousy feeling.
and you know how i’m always like when it comes to this. always all for it and i’ll just do it.. but this time it’s different.
i hate it when unforeseen circumstances are the controlling factors. what could i possibly do? it’s so hard and frustrating.
can i have my carefree life back again? time in abundance for me to manipulate?
i’m just really truly apologetic.
Closed Book At... [9:22 AM]
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
AHLEEEELEEEE!
wad’s with being unduly insecure?! like almost over nothing... but why does it just keep you thinking, distracting you from work! SNAP OUT OF IT! =/
where have your self confidence gone to all these while! BAHHHHHH.
so annoyed by myself. but still pondering. over a small little thing which i just can't figure out.
yes, i’m kinda even questioning the path.
just let time tell me... everything.
AND... I MISS QIQI ALOT LA. =(
Closed Book At... [10:41 AM]
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
leading a different life this week.
straying from my usual routine.
so not me. so not ahleelee.
today made me realise... it seems so hard to just 'grab' somebody. hmm.. eventually, the best company is me, myself and i.
insecurities. over? wonder what.
weird. did something happen to me? why didn't i even know/realise?
or maybe recently i'm feeling tired. i just wanna bury my head in my pillow. and doze till there's no tomorrow.
it's time. good night... to me, myself and i.
Closed Book At... [11:17 PM]
Friday, July 17, 2009
really appreciate even the simplest gestures at times.
a simple thought, text, call would suffice. but maybe it isn't that simple to some people.. or just busier with life than i am? shrugs.
i just did that simi daiji thing twice. hmm.. wrong or not. dunno. hope it just seems to be portrayed right.
when feelings lead to thoughts, resulting in actions, it could be unexplainable. but no matter what, the root of mine is good intentions.
the process means the most. or rather, it's all that matters. the results, could just be a bonus.
texted many,
spoke to some,
went out with a couple,
missing a few. =(
hope to see them soon. real soon.
Closed Book At... [8:36 AM]
Monday, July 13, 2009
realise sleep really keeps one going. lol. today i'm tired cos' maybe slept too much. lazy. but... feel kinda refreshed!
guess this is a truly OL's life. not my kind of thang though.
mum went to genting this morning. will miss her these few days. =/
and. did something recently. which is kinda like...simi daiji. hmmm.. wadever. feel. feel.. =)
off to work. not leisure access time in 3 mins!
Closed Book At... [8:51 AM]
Thursday, July 09, 2009
it's so hard.... trying to make my way into someone's life. trying to make a difference.
i'm tired. i dunno what more i can look forward to anymore.
pride. it's time i'm gonna draw a line.
made a wrong move. didn't know wanting to make an effort for someone can actually be so tough..
really never meant to cause you to feel this way. i'm sorry...
and i suddenly had this random birthday wanna-do. i wanna take the singapore flyer at like 7pm when it's still bright evening, and during the journey, the sun will set. so when the flyer is going down, it's dark. isn't that gonna be nice?! =)
da ling.
clonie loves.
baby huajie.
no pics with beloved qiqi during tbg though. =(
ok, gooooooooood night. early night.
Closed Book At... [11:09 PM]
Monday, July 06, 2009
just wanna say... a very BIG SORRY.
to many many people, for many many things.
especially to my beloved beloved dope da ling. ya.. i know. it already happened. and it might be for a reason. through this, i realised many things. really meaningful insights which touched my heart.
but sometimes such things do not even have to happen. arrgh. all my fault. and i seriously don't feel good about it at all. i know to them, there's no more sorry required anymore...
big frown. =((((((((((
so... maybe i can say thanks?
and to you. i don't want you to feel obliged to do anything at all.
not a single thing.
Closed Book At... [1:37 PM]
Thursday, July 02, 2009
MORNING.
8am. sleepyyyyy.
2 days consecutively.
OT. daily.
9pm. almost.
trainings.
competition. tomorrow.
full out. later.
no facebook. ever. =/
and.. i hope we win this project. if not it's like waste of effort and time = WASTE MONEY!!! cos' time = money!! LOL. hmm. not even sure if there's more bonus. haha.
Closed Book At... [8:51 AM]
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
at this rate i'm going, my body might just break down before fri. at least let me reach fri, and die after i chiong for the competition k.. hahaha. choi choi. =O
my body isn't well and i'm so stressed and busy this week, especially now that the guy's on mc for two days. bad timing. but... yes, i will tell myself my body's fine, perfectly well, despite the bad tummyache i had last night. =(
honestly, i'm struggling hard to pull through. really afraid of my physical condition. but i will be fine. MUST! CHIONG! (seems like this is more of a self motivation entry. lol)
it's all to do with the mental state! i'm strong. want to be. will be. need to keep my spirits high for me to carry on. =)
and... i'm momentarily happy today. cos'... someone came by and SURPRISE LUNCH me! WHEEEE. so so so so happy la. thanks lovely dt. =D you totally made my day.
no matter wad, all these while, i've always enjoyed myself dancing.. bring the enjoyment to the dance floor this fri! just feel it when you dance and fatigue will be the last thing on your mind.
and yes. i guess i'm feeling pretty insecure now over many unknown things. plus baby's comment that my self confidence seems to have decreased. true, to some extent i suddenly realised. i don't know why. and many things, i'm kinda tired already. really just gonna leave it. and say bye. =)
oh yes, today i just realised my company banned facebook even during my 'facebook hours'! so now, i'm here blogging. and it's so annoying having to wait for the world to give you error and errored again documents then finally the right stuff before you can start working.
-tick tock-
Closed Book At... [6:38 PM]
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