Thursday, January 31, 2008
darlin miao's birthday! 9p celebrated her birthday with a fabulicious dinner at marche. but favourite pizza was lacking =(. *pouts* anyway, we had great sumptuous courses.
soft shell crab, pasta, 2 rostis (sausage & smoked salmon), beef steak, kampong chicken with mashed potato, ham & cheese crepe, spicy chicken wings and desserts (banana strawberry crepe with caramel ice cream & some baileys cream thing). hohoho. hungry yet? not very wise since i'm getting hungry too.
before the tutorial on how to eat a chicken wing using a fork and a knife.
during tutorial, not very patient coaching. and btw, rine is the worst student. haha.
secret discussion.
tired out after the short tutorial.
attacking the dessert!
oops. caught in action. haha.
a shot with the moomoo.
the moomoo fight.
hahaa.. after that, i created a brainless game starting off by hitting dt's butt ONCE. yes. it was just one butt hit. haha. and it became a 'hit the butt' game. dt has to hit another butt TWICE! haha and it continues.
yep, lame but tiring and fun, causing much screams & screeches too. haha. craziness. and two ganchiong pokes (rine and sai) ran off at top speed when it was my turn to hit a butt 6 times! ahaha. they even hid behind the bushes. =O
tiring. but... treat it as training for my napfa this sat. haha yes, it's really foreign to my beloved 9p since they had it years ago. grrr. maybe i should P-O-N! hohoho. =)
and now, i'm still super tired after much arting around. ahhaa not farting eh. it's arting!! busy at work for the whole day creating 5 colour and composition art pieces. so draining.
me NO LIKE.
gotta rush project stuff these 2 weeks, totally packed... even during chinese new year. i'm gonna be exhausted. feeling tired so easily now. =( i can even snooze for 3 hours after i wake. haha. and i realised i dream quite often recently..
some teeny weeny things are still as sweet and lovely. =) or is it cos i have lowered my expectations just to be a little happier? who cares. nevertheless, it's a nice feeling and such small things still bring a smile to my face.
Closed Book At... [12:39 AM]
Sunday, January 27, 2008
yes, i can't fall asleeep! even with fingerless smily patrick starfish staring at me on the bed with his eyes wide open to welcome me, I CAN'T!
i turned and tossed, and tossed and turned. arrgh. not feeling happy today and i thought this someone would talk to me, but guess he's too tired after his own things, to realise that i actually felt like talking.
smsed. no reply. he fell asleep in less than a minute. =( but it's ok.. just exhausted, i guess. and maybe it's a good thing he fell asleep, cos'... i'm still up now.. haha.
boo. and randomly, i realised that.. i've been drinking less and less water. which is very very little.
Closed Book At... [1:27 AM]
Saturday, January 26, 2008
went for lei gui class today... didn't perspire as much as the others in class and an an asked me why i was so dry.. haha. and went to look see around after that. every popular place in singapore is in chaos today. EVERY single person in singapore is shopping! oolala.
just ended up without any shopping mood. but once you decide to look around, you're sorta hooked, addicted to look around even MORE. haha.
bought a few simple stuff. and this top from bugis street which i kinda like, but... couldn't try! so i bought white.. realised it's so transparent. sadddddddd. shall go back and TRY to change it to black tomorrow.. and i went to draw money on purpose, squeeze back through the crowd just to get it... really hope it's possible. if not so wasted =(
but soooooo lonely today.. and literally had to squeeze through the crowd everywhere. just dampens my already not very good mood. bah =(.
Closed Book At... [9:19 PM]
Thursday, January 24, 2008
i'm just so so afraid. boo.
wonder why you said those things just now.
was just asking... thinking... hoping to get a reason. but when you're tired, conversations don't end well, sprouting untrue stuff which makes me upset. it always concludes with negative feelings.
perhaps reasons matter too much to me... so much that everything goes wrong. explanations really make a difference.
arggh. just so unhappy today. or... recently. mood swings. stressed... projects, just so much to do, so much to cope with.
maybe i should think carefully over what certain significant people actually said to me.
and... i always think i have an unexplainable weird feeling towards this some person. so weird.
Closed Book At... [1:15 AM]
Friday, January 18, 2008
a state of confusion, insecurity, uncertainty. just messed up.
i'm afraid about... so many things. am i on the right track? happiness isn't far, as long as you rule out all other unhappy areas. so is that actually far?
maybe i should seek solace in lovely little things.
i appreciate happy happy friends who are worried about me. thanks so much. i simply love my friends. simple... unsophisticated, and true. we've been through years and years of friendship. but never encountered people or happenings that are majorly nerve-wrecking.
is that what keeps our sanity? is that what makes us such happy and innocent people? does that mean we haven't grown? i really wonder... do happenings increase the complexity of a person? i guess the bottomline is... i'm really lucky to have met them, drifting by a considerably smooth-sailing happy teenage hood.
treasure the other lovely little thing, which are times i get to dance... i know i'm not really to the standard, but... just love the stage performances, opportunities simply for me to enjoy. that's primary. and secondary, these lovely little things keep my mind off negative major things. at least for a bit.
i've always been pondering... why? never at a point of time, you feel that you are enjoying the moment so much, or treasure it alot that it'll be etched in your memories for life. always the aftermath that makes me realise the significance and importance of those cherished moments.
it applies for the above lovely little things... enjoyable times never seem so perfect, till they're over. why do we look back after everything is over? or am i the only one?
have i taken happiness for granted?
Closed Book At... [12:04 AM]
Sunday, January 13, 2008
suddenly... the feeling is different. just feels... so wrong.
it's not the same anymore. seriously, what's the point... i guess the happy times doesn't really make a difference at all... bad things are always more significant.
people never ever think more of the cherished treasured times. or maybe this time it's different, the bad times really mean too much till... if good times are lost, and the person who made the memories gone, perhaps to this person... there's still nothing to look back on, nothing to regret about.
i question myself why all that happened... why do i still... why...
but... i really just can't.
Closed Book At... [1:18 PM]
Saturday, January 05, 2008
sitting... staring... swallowing down chewed condiments. at this moment, i suspect that my taste buds have failed. feeling nothing, tasting nothing.
i squirmed. upon sorting out my feelings, but just to know things that've been suppressing you for so long, just today. and i'm clueless. what a loser. the tables are turned.
it hurts soo terribly deeply to only know things today. it came as a HUGE blow. seriously huge, feeling that history has once again repeated itself. as always, even after changing so much. perhaps it makes no difference at all. i blame myself.
i tried so hard... you tried as hard. i see it. i appreciate it, but you think i don't. i feel it, but whatever i said made you think i don't. everything just can't be pieced back now, isn't it?
i've been through too much these days, even feel like i'm doing things that make no sense to me anymore. i'm at the brim, edge... to just giving up everything. really so hopeless after finding out things today i never knew i did subconsciously that affected you so badly. yes, i am just such a fuckass.
at this point of time, i so feel like i'm breaking down into pieces. after being so stressed by school... and all. a simple hope - i just want to be happy with you again, so utterly bad. is it really so hard to be happy? no, it's not. but i guess i'm the one who made it so hard for both of us. so regretful, so apologetic.
the clock continues ticking. i stare at it again. it's still moving, clockwise.
i really need a big hug so badly now. so badly...
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