Saturday, June 27, 2009
my body is dying. i'm dead beat. been working late every night this week plus trainings. and.. i foresee the same for next week too.
really happy that we made it to the finals. grats to revogue and sub too. they did a great job and i was shouting my lungs out for them. so awesomeeeeee. =) we are in the finals together!!
hmm.. i oughta admit. i was so surprised and happy and glad and everything positive when i saw the parcel on the table yest after i got back from a fabulous yet terrible night. great, cos' we got into finals. terrible cos'... dunno. everything else?
i guess. the parcel is right on time, for a reason. so i shall just go with the flow, with the assumed reason. after that, back to square one.
wasn't feeling so good yest night. including body condition. it sucks to the maximum level. i hate to always bring trouble to people, but i always do. arrgh. nothing else made things any better.
i want more sour apple shots.
i'll just blame everything on the alcohol.
ahlee shall sleep super early today. immense everything in my dreamland. bye.
Closed Book At... [9:53 PM]
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
i believe i am strong.
i've become much braver now.
don't want people to always have to look out for me. don't wanna feel like i bring people trouble. don't wanna bother anyone at all.
i am strong and independent. worthy of the independent crew.
and if there's anything, i shall fight till my last breath.
i'm not scared.
and... upon realisation. i think i've spent 400 bucks on my credit card. gotta pay my dad soon. i know my parents won't really ask for the money.
but i pay for what i buy. it's only right. their hard earned money should be for themselves.
although it's my hard earned money too, i made choices on what to spend on. there're reasons behind my purchases. haha. everyone will say that huh. wadever. anyway, i'm so gonna scrimp like crazy now. bread bread bread.
hmm. and wanna thank someone who always sound so nice and concerned. it's heartwarming. really. even such simple stuff. =)
Closed Book At... [11:14 PM]
i should have contemplated...more.
i should.
lost my lv card pouch again. i guess it's cos' i have been too heavily dazing off recently. always feel like i can space out like forever. too many thoughts on my mind...
feeling really low these days. and things haven't been going well for me at all. all things.
felt hurt by some friend yest. just seems like friendship never existed before.
and da ling told me some stuff last night. made me realise alot. thanks for being so truthful. appreciate that alot.. but suddenly i feel so lost. i'm not sure if i wanna head that direction anymore.
over and over again, i've put down my pride. and now, i don't know what to do anymore.
someone oughta wake me up from this nightmare-like fairytale.
i just don't wanna live the next 3 years of my life with any regrets.
Closed Book At... [8:44 AM]
Sunday, June 07, 2009
i just wanna fall asleep now.
not tired or sleepy. but just wanna sleep.
which is not a good sign.
suddenly not feeling too well too. =/ bye.
and hi to tomorrow.
Closed Book At... [8:58 PM]
a BIG BIG thanks to everyone who's so concerned. really. all the sweet lovely people around. especially RYAN, always our loveeeeeeeeee, who talked to me and made me feel more secure and much much better. thank you so much. =)
also didn't expect friends who never really used to be close to me to be so nice too. and of cos' the dope pple, they make a big difference. thanks for the time, effort and concern. i feel the love, so strong.
hoping for a little more from a friend, and receiving more than expected from another.
boo. why is it affecting me so much.
i'm reluctant. but maybe i should just go along with what comes. and yes, beloved qiqi. i admit i do have my pride too.
say bye and now i'm back to square one.
da ling. maybe you're wrong about the reason after all.
ah yes, i think alot about everything. even what people MIGHT think about me and all that... can i just not be a virgo?
baby, i know i'll always have your love.
and yours, yours, yours, yours and you all =)
snuggle. nicely squeezed into the shot.
Closed Book At... [12:17 AM]
Thursday, June 04, 2009
i don't know why, i'm extremely scared now.
haven't been eating or sleeping well. in such a terrible state.
guess i'm just too weak now, i don't wanna be alone. kinda wish you were here.
it's so heartwarming to see joyce and frankie going through this together. what doesn't bring them down makes them stronger. and i'm so glad they have each other.
really wanna extend my sincere apologies and heartfelt thanks to them. really sorry for everything.. but thanks so much for being there.
i'm so afraid. soo afraid of everything. can everything just be over soon?
Closed Book At... [1:39 PM]
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
randoms.
feet hurt.
ran in heels.
felt so awake.
worrying about facing.
no messages.
wondering.
maybe not anymore.
when i sleep really early, something's wrong.
when i eat chocolates, something's wrong.
when i keep quiet, something's wrong.
when i just wanna be alone, something's wrong.
when i'm in a daze or find it hard to breathe,
something's wrong.
when i'm going through all of the above, everything's wrong.
maybe you're right. i'm bad. really bad. sorry for being bad in your eyes.
or perhaps i'm wrong, you've never been proud of me dancing.
i don't wanna be facing all these. but i guess my life's been too peaceful all along.
i wanna thank all those who are so concerned about us.
and... to you, i'm so so sorry. i didn't mean for all these to happen.
Closed Book At... [11:31 PM]
i feel so terrible now.
i just know... from now on, everything will change.
i'm never going to have my old life back. never going to be a happy me again.
say bye.
Closed Book At... [1:11 PM]
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