Wednesday, January 25, 2006
It's... a song I haven't heard in ages.
You know how a song... can jerk memories back, even unwanted reminiscence. Memories you tried so hard to forget. Just listening to a 4 minute song seems to have the ability to bring you back to the past. To the days... you wish to forget.
A song has the overwhelming power to drill flashbacks into your mind, hitting you before you know it. Scenes you thought you have long forgotten... you haven't actually, in your subconscious mind.
The psychological game. It's all in the mind. =(
Closed Book At... [1:23 AM]
Thursday, January 19, 2006
i was so flustered today, in a rush to do everything. can't believe i actually walked so much in just one morning. to print shop, to doctor, home, back to doctor, to print shop again, and lastly... to school.
totally screwed up my photography assignment which was to be handed in today. $61 spent, when it could have been much much less. many factors contributing to the series of unfortunate events. but shall not elaborate. it all started when my final well printed photos tore fatefully yest night.
adding to my anxiety and frustration (photo problems and the missing of photography lesson), kenny actually spoke to me over the phone. added to my worries, esp when i heard that deep stern voice. but.. it was fine. i like him. he's so so nice. and thanks to my beloved friends, they spared me the unnecessary agony. but i think i could have taken that, just for laughs. me and my dire consequences yea, haha.
such bad days recently. but i foresee worse days the week after this, definitely.
a badly ripped seam. even the last seams holding the garment seem to be tearing apart, bit by bit. some sewing ought to be done. it's best if the whole garment can be pieced together, wearable again. it shall not be a mission impossible.
some shots i took:
my dog's quite photogenic, isn't he? i reckon he can be a star. =D
Closed Book At... [11:09 PM]
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
I can't seem to sleep before 3.30 am anymore. =(
Closed Book At... [2:21 AM]
Sunday, January 08, 2006
i feel bitter.
what deception. i hate to deceive myself, but sometimes, it seems like it's the best way out.
i hate having to convince myself to believe in certain things which may not true at all. but, it seems like i have to do it, to make myself feel better. to keep myself sane. because of the 'may', there's still a gleam of hope.
i'm tired. you don't know what it's like.
just my thoughts. but...
no worries, i guess i'm still one happy girl. cos' i chose to be one.
Closed Book At... [2:59 AM]
Thursday, January 05, 2006
i feel fat. so piggit.
but i crave for nachos with hot cheese at this very moment. like someone always says, 'evil thoughts lead to evil actions'. anyway, i can't get nachos now.. so i won't do the 'evil action' - eat. i wanna have good food tomorrow! eh it's today..
school's started, yest was my 1st day. oh and please don't be mistaken. my holidays were not as long as the JC pple.. just about 2 weeks short break. can't get used to school yet, perhaps cos' of the fact that i always sleep at 4am.
so... to solve my problem, i got myself some off days (means pon in a subtle way). i know this can't go on... but just can't bring myself to go to school. then gotta need formal wear for next monday already. such a put off. waste of money too. i'd willingly go for percom if not for that.
test results are out. i think i did okay, fairly well.
Closed Book At... [2:17 AM]
Monday, January 02, 2006
yay we had new year eve celebration at jy's house yest.. ehh.. should be the day before. quite a number of people turned up. =) anyway, bought a black forest cake for them. cos.. what's a celebration without a cake? don't know if it was nice though. didn't eat.
took very long to start the fire, everyone was super duper hungry la. but can't complain.. cos' only some pple were starting it and they were trying very hard.
after it started, we cooked and cooked till past midnight.. glad that tofu and gw could join us for sleepover after work. haha.. countdown wasn't very exciting. actually, we didn't really have one.
anyway, first time drinking and i became very red and hot, but wasn't drunk. first i had tequila with orange (tasted weird and smelt like permanent marker) before any food. got super high, laughed at everything. puked a bit but felt fine after some bbq food. the food was not too bad. yummy stingrays we cooked! while cooking, empty vessels (like ky) were making noise like how the chicken should be golden brown and not white. and greedy guys started making bookings for the chicken on the grill! haha.
then tried barcadi with coke a little. thought it was very bitter. ky, jy and ch went swimming and we played near the poolside. haha got high again, overly. nearly fell into the pool and started doing absurd things like climbing railings. anyway, lucas was worse la! he drank sooo much and was definitely not very sober. but he still continued drinking and insisted he wasn't drunk. haha he spoke a lotta nonsensical stuff too. it was funny.
got complained by 2 people at abt 3am, asking us to lower our volume. i thought we were not too loud.. but... maybe we were. then played cards with ht and abel back in the house. abel's quite scheming despite his looks. haha and ht's like 'cursing' us all the way during the game. mean. others were either asleep or watching tv.
i didn't sleep the whole night. was quite energetic that day, together with mel, sai, teng and tofu.. haha swee arr.. she's always half asleep. so not counted! =p
it was nice talking to pple i've not seen for a long long time, like jil and hsin and the guys! didn't feel like there's any barrier. just plain fun la. interactive gathering. even if i didn't speak much to some guys, it was nice to listening to their conversations too, although quite crude at times. =p after reaching home, just plopped.
oh ya, my handphone died on me. and when i switched it on again, most of the messages are gone. now i start to wonder... if those messages meant anything to me at all. why did i keep them? point is...? i guess this helped me get out of the struggle.
new year resolutions - none. maybe just one, i shouldn't talk too much. whenever i'm with friends, having fun, i just say everything, including nonsense. but sometimes when i reflect upon my actions and the way i speak, felt that it wasn't very desirable.. don't know what's wrong though. so maybe i shouldn't talk so much after all.
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