Sunday, February 24, 2008
read through a couple of my past entries. it suddenly dawned on me that everything is a stark difference.
we're all at a totally new phase of our lives.
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Saturday, February 23, 2008
i do not feel the least relieved at all. it was too much for me. i'm really fine with everything that happened. just that there're some things i need time to get over. patience, butterfly effect. and it's been a while.
it's true.. little efforts make a whole lot of difference in a relationship. i do not have much expectations now. but i have to admit at certain crucial special times or occasions, i can't deny that little things could simply set things straight. they just didn't come. but guess it's still pretty obvious what i want eventually. and you know it.
am currently watching drama series. haven't been a tv person for some time. but yep, i studied too! cos' i know that i've gotta return to my trusty books. haha.
thought i did ok for media law exam till my essay questions. only half an hour to do 2 parts of the essay questions, which were 40 plus marks in total! didn't write a lot.. and i guess my answers were crappy. and after much discussion, i realised i didn't do so well in the earlier sections either. so afraid. i don't wanna break the record and be the first taking a supplementary paper for that subject. =(
my studying area at home is ridiculous at times. haha. the strong sunlight kept penetrating through. was stinging my eyes. had a hard time studying. =(
yeah. this was what i meant...
kinda artistic, no? haha.
advanced media marketing exam coming up on tues. i must remember... not to regurgitate everything in the textbook. it's all about application and examples!
yep. and today i bullied my dog. haha. made him really upset. but he got over it as soon as i removed the thing on top of his little head...
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Wednesday, February 20, 2008
first time i actually stepped into the store and this pair of gold heels caught my eyes. =( super nice. yea. it's just a want though... but... you know, it's a really nice to have... haha.
sushi date at sushi tei was great, though it was such a short date. cos... company was the weird and happy people. haha. but we saw a weird ganchiong woman there, pacing up and down the counter asking for the same thing over again. feeling so jittery and changing seats every now and then. weird. weirder than US.
mango king prawn roll was fabulous!! haha. together with beef wrapping with golden mushroom. ooyumyum. expensive though. yep and dt ought to tell me how that weird fruit tastes like. AVOCADO. haha. sounds foreign to both mind and tastebuds. =O
and i feel that i'm increasingly getting more BABA recently. phat is the word. all right... it sounds and looks cooler than FAT right. seriously. should cut down on eating. what's with the tasty food indulgence man. makes me put on weight and constantly burning holes in my pocket. but... i just can't resist guilty pleasures. =( LEARN! it's oughta be fruit-sey time!
exams coming. REAL SOON. and i jolly well know it might be the last exams i'm mugging for. but still... no motivation. study, but the text seems to just zoom past my blank mind instead of registering. bad, bad. aw. time to face the books.
past consideration is not consideration. haha. random media law input.
cos' of the recent events lined up, i'm tired. i'm starting to learn. how to think, filter, then think and filter again what should be made audible to the person involved.
no natural connection anymore.
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Monday, February 18, 2008
i've become increasingly moody due to project and recent happenings, which has tweaked me into an angsty person. frustrated, so pent up.
really. haven't been happy for quite some time. kinda oblivious to feelings and things for now. too much has been said, followed by as much consequences.
i miss my happy friends. alot.
the silly people who tried to conquer the cows outside a restaurant despite all eyes on them.
the weird person who held tutorials on eating spicy chicken wings.
and the people who actually attended them.
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Sunday, February 17, 2008
tired after one year. thanks for letting me know.
thanks. after changing so much, nothing ever changes.
what a joke.
sometimes even a little talk is too much to take. there's nothing left... anymore. nothing worth holding on to after all is said.
tired of listening, despite the changes. no more room for anything else.
this person just pops up in my mind, once again.
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Friday, February 15, 2008
another project day, on a special occasion. i guess everyone knows how girls always find the actual day significant. even if they don't say, they still do.
someone didn't get my hint. and i thought it was pretty obvious. was starving till almost 11pm. really thought someone would plan something small for me, who's cooped up in school, watching couples leave early hand in hand. perhaps that's why the school was exceptionally quiet today.
expected something. at least still a LITTLE something? just a small meaningful gesture would have made my day. i'd be on cloud nine. but nothing came...
it was the first time i felt like receiving flowers. even a stalk of cheapo $5 rose. perhaps it was just the environment and atmosphere that made me succumb to such a temptation. bad bad me.
was struggling with work the whole day, and slept at 5am that morning. after such a tiring day together with an excruciating headache, even a freebie mcdonald balloon would have made my day. was really vulnerable to simply anything. felt that i just needed something...
i wonder if i wished for a little too much?
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Thursday, February 14, 2008
there's no such thing as... 'selfless'.
i seem to always bring trouble upon myself by creating them. shouldn't ask... shouldn't think. gah. don't like how things always go wrong on special occasions. it's simply the company i long for. maybe i'm just asking for too much.
late nights, sleepless nights, doing project. rushing and rushing. now additional cds art works to be completed by today. it's the stress that's piling on me that i sprouted nonsense just now.
things just never seem to go right this year. this time. this occasion. today.
it's the attitude.
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Saturday, February 09, 2008
questions there will be no answers to...
changes, for the better? perhaps better in one sense but somehow not another.
is this lowering chances of heated arguments, or leaving room for uncertain emotions? will this cause a rift?
honestly, i'm not the same old me anymore. silent movements, silent thoughts - all for you. but even now, sometimes i just still need that little word called 'reassurance'.
i guess i should be sorry that my adaptation period took so long. maybe even longer than animals to their new environment? haha.
but... after adaptating, is the new environment actually beneficial? something for thought. and i suppose... differing opinions always exist.
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Wednesday, February 06, 2008
mister, the attitude's wrong in the wrongest situation, for the rightest intention ever.
project's been killing me. it was such a long day yesterday. project-ed again after presentation rehearsal (which we realised we're kinda unprepared in many many ways), re-did the collaterals and tried to squeeze out the largest amounts of print-outs that day, so we wouldn't have to make more trips to the print shop again.
journey: school -> hougang print shop -> NUS law faculty to return the law books we borrowed.
thanks to loo for getting the car, if not we'd just drop dead. esp chris and me, didn't really sleep the night before. was soooo worn out. and she drove me home! =)
things didn't go well today. planned to do some last minute shopping, and bought this new dress-like top. but... when i tried it again just now, a button was missing!! =( wonder if i overlooked the checking at the shop, or when i tried it again at home, it dropped and went missing. but in either way, i can't change it. sad. sad. sad. ugly one button dress.
a bad start to this chinese new year. =(
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Tuesday, February 05, 2008
yes, at this very point in time. i need some serious reality check.
i am project-ing. colours don't seem like colours anymore.
mind functioning: purple and black=same what
time check: 0405
progress check: a little more than halfway, unknown.
energy check: 3%
hahhaa. really. switching. off. someone please 'shaaaaaaave' me. yes, pun intended. haha. sai. i want a shaver now! i guess i'm starting to sprout gibberish. =(
i miss outings. just to anywhere. anywhere.
ok, anyway i watched sweeny just a few days back. lotsa throat slashing, with bright red coloured blood. enjoyed the dark weird morbid songs, in sync beats with the movie actions. love the settings too. fantabulous. and not to forget oooo-so-sexy johnny. =)
and cny is coming up... dreading. gonna receive a puny amount of money but always caught in sticky conversations. ew =( so irritating. some serious projecting on hand this time, so don't step on my toes.
another random thought: this lil' giraffe at chris' house is soooooo super cute. georgie and i are crazy over it. as i'm typing this gibberish blog entry, it's peeking over my lappie screen. such a lovely sweet gesture! =)
and it's from guardian! not sure if they still have, but i would love to have it! lovely giraffe-eeee! i even have a name for it! hahahaha.
ok. shut down. and back to colours and designing.
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