Friday, April 28, 2006
I'm having a bad sore throat, almost voiceless. Been downing bottles and bottles of water. Never used to care much when this happened. But now, my voice is so very precious, at least for sat and tues.
And the thing is, I just can't live without talking. hahaa.. So no matter how hard I try, I end up straining my vocal chords, trying to speak, but end up squeaking instead..
It's either make it, or break it. I know I want it so much. Now it's not me ruining my own chances. It's just the timing, coincidentally falling sick at this crucial period. Arrgh.. maybe it's still me, not taking good care of myself.
I find that I don't really understand myself anymore.
I waited... and waited. For what? Something that's really insignificant, and stupid.
Wonder if this is going to be the start of something great, or a series of unfortunate events, which will do me no good at all. I have a strong feeling it'll be the latter.
I'm worried, very worried.
But... maybe it's not that serious after all. I don't know.
Closed Book At... [1:10 AM]
Sunday, April 23, 2006
I feel so silly. How can such things ruin my mood? Yes, they did. And even affected me to a large extent.
A person like me definitely needs more 2nd or 3rd chances. It's always me, letting opportunities go just.. like.. that. Sometimes it's not so coincidental that you will get the chances again. But I never learnt to treasure them, and somehow, I think I will never learn to. Just can't get past my own psychological barrier. It's not that easy.
I think I'll just give up. It'll never happen. A faraway dream...
Yeah. Maybe I should be more realistic and focus on things closer to my life, not thinking about intangible stuff.
But it's either giving up now or continue till it happens. I don't know. I guess I should really stop thinking for now. It's like getting sad over nothing.
And I'm starting to fear my unpredictable emotions.
Closed Book At... [12:42 AM]
Friday, April 14, 2006
ishi was dancing right in front of me! i could almost faint... seriously. haha. =D
Closed Book At... [9:16 PM]
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
it's nice to run in the rain. but anyway, i still hate running.
been wanting to go to taiwan so so badly, but many factors to consider. ah, lazy.
1 more day and she's turning 22. but, she's more childish than me. i wouldn't scold my mum or slam the door if she didn't buy food for me. but, she did just that. 22 years old cannot buy food herself? must feed her??
cos' mum forgot to buy food for her (unintentionally), she screeched, 'my birthday coming already, still treat me liddat!!' oh.. so she knows she's turning 22?
i can't really do anything to help... hmm.. maybe i can! ...by taking over the task, and buy food for her. -_-
while preparing to go out... (after searching wardrobe for 10mins), 'eh why never buy clothes for me?? you don't know i need meh? now i going out, no clothes to wear la!'
....
and when almost ready to step out of the house... (very little shoes to pick from), 'MUMMMY. i no more shoes already! u never buy for me, now what i wear/how i go out??!!'
'MUMMY buy lip gloss for me..'
'MUMMY i need a new handphone. my number pad spoil u dunno meh? i tell u sooooooo many times already!'
i am going crazy. i think my mum is going crazier. maybe a drama like that should be produced. then she'll know how she's like..
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