Thursday, August 27, 2009
lunch today was yummy durian pancake and KOI milk tea again! unhealthy, i know. =/ haven't had proper meals these 2 days.
bought stockings. one which i kinda regret. fishnet! so revealing. =/ like wearing nothing. (unintentionally rhymes eh!) shall figure a way to wear it. quote meiqi, 'DON'T WASTE, DON'T WASTE!!' (lol. hers of cos' in the aspect of food...=p)
still in a light hearted mood now. perhaps just calming myself for later... and tomorrow. haha. this week's tiring. i swear i could fall asleep in seconds.
strolled past the studio earlier on,
heard a familiar song over the radio.
the melody struck me with a feeling that wasn't exactly pleasant.
it's time. delete the songs from my playlist.
but it's always there in the mind, and heart.
just like what dt says, some numbers... are not easy to forget. the daily habit of calling/texting someone... it's gonna take a while before the memory fades.
tomorrow's gonna be a busy day!
hmmm.. random. i want nice sexy chunky heels. =)
Closed Book At... [2:37 PM]
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
i just hope baby's fine.
am worried. =( but i can't do much.
hmm.. wondering about studies. high fees. this journey's gonna be tough. but i know i want it. make it work.
i'm a big girl now.
please... hope everything goes well for friday's performance. all jitters about it. not easy... at all.
stay strong.
and to you. remember your promise.
Closed Book At... [2:04 PM]
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
hey hey, hey hey hey. i don't care what people say... haha. i'm really speechless about the choreo. in the speechless-ly wow way. will TRY my best to make it look nice though!
whole body's in pain. like seriously, every SINGLE part. but all's fine. =) i'm enjoying again, so who cares.
haven't danced like this in ages ages. despite the struggle, it was such an adrenaline rush... in a positive way.
checking out studies online. and i'm so ready.
p.s. jasmine lee loves happy chats. =)
and... must reiterate, skippy loves sweetest awesome 9p! i know the hearts are always there.
Closed Book At... [11:03 AM]
Monday, August 24, 2009
thanks so soooo much to my beloved 9p, offering to help in everything. really so appreciative.
and i know no matter wad, i can always count on them. thanks a million for putting in utmost effort in every aspect and always asking me if i need anything. =) sweetest simplest things ever. i know things will be great, cos' of you all.
and and and... don't misunderstand k! haha. yea..
everything is sooo expensive!! my birthday party, just for 2days, costs like a BOMB BOMB BOMB! =/ nvm. spent. so no looking back. lol.
aching. training more this week. but i'm happily aching. =)
i hope i won't be disappointed. i want it so bad...
some things, i just can't accept or come to terms with it. but... if you're happy. there's nothing i can do.
Closed Book At... [9:49 AM]
Friday, August 21, 2009
seriously, no mood to celebrate my birthday at all.
it's like so pointless. so hard to get pple's help. don't wanna trouble them too. especially those who have to focus on competition. just dance, dance, dance. give them all my heartfelt love and birthday luck (if i have any to begin with).
no mood to put in effort on the event anymore. nothing to look forward to.
if i could, i would cancel it on the spot like now.
even preparing something after my birthday, putting in effort despite being so tired everyday. but... i'm starting to wonder if there's any point in it. 11months left...
and kinda wanna thank py for putting in effort to talk to me. and yeah. know his intentions are kind no matter wad. so it's really nice. thanks alot. =)
Closed Book At... [2:38 PM]
THIS FEELING SUCKS DEEP DOWN TO THE CORE!
why can't i do it! i was always able to.. I DON'T BELIEVE IT. just blank, and pure LOUSY.
no confidence, no more courage to face the world anymore. i can't even face myself.
it's just not me.
this frustration is eating me inside.
tell myself just need time, just need time, just need time.
and i can't figure out wad's going on with you.
ok random thought.
some guys are so smart and 'tactful' when it comes to ending stuff: sorry, i've no time to commit.
leave it to fate lor.
wahahhaa. and now, WOW. admiration. hmmm... as long as they're happy. guess that matters most.
Closed Book At... [11:23 AM]
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
firstly, i have a choice.
2ndly, i have no reasons to be there for you at all.
lastly, your business is none of mine.
i don't mind being there for you as a friend, but i have my limits too. you don't just call me only when you need me there.
am i just a convenient friend that no one sees the significance of? ahh. whatever. limit's to the brim now.
anyway, yest my company held a surprise celeb for me and the other august babies with dark chocolate cake from bakerzin along with chips, drinks and an informal presentation! cake's fine despite the fact that i dislike chocolate, not to mention DARK chocolate. haha.
there was extra leftover cake i brought back.
and melted real bad... booooooo.
anyway, i want the best for the da ling! know you'll just feel it and have all the feel in the world that day yo! GOGOGOGO to the max! =)
Closed Book At... [8:54 AM]
Monday, August 17, 2009
i'm speechless, beyond words.
only had 1.5 hours of sleep yest.
and unsure if i heard the right thing yest cos' of my upset groggy mode. seems so vague now trying to recall.
contemplating a getaway trip alone next month. place: undecided.
thinking aussie next year for studies.
Closed Book At... [10:53 AM]
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
will you really give up things you treasure so much, just cos' the situation seems to stray to the negative side?
again, it makes me wonder. why some people can give up so easily when certain things mean the world to them.
happened before. part of my experience.
i'm so afraid you will... let special things, people, feelings, just slip through your fingers and pass you by.
and later... regret.
the last thing i ever want... is for you to walk away from my life.
my 21st. am i really looking forward to it?
Closed Book At... [10:59 PM]
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
i'm just afraid of losing things i already have which are so dear to me.
like you people. and the bond. i jolly well know i don't have the luxury of time. that's why i'm afraid. so afraid, suddenly.
or maybe i just think too much. too much for my own benefit. =/
i'm seeing the situation now from a wide lens.
different worlds, own paths, varying schedules. even proximity. will it stay the way it is in the long run? i'm really scared. i don't want things to change. but i know for sure, change is constant. just... please. not in this aspect.
assure me nothing is changing. it's just the situation now. i guess this is when insecurities hit me hard, all of a sudden.
cos'... they mean the world to me.
Closed Book At... [3:13 PM]
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