Saturday, November 22, 2008
when things don't go your way...
when your heart feels the way your mind tells it not to...
i dislike such terrible feelings. i can't even understand why i'm feeling this way. don't know what's wrong, seriously. i know i can't get over my own feelings and i'm really at a lost. maybe i'm just not strong.
many small, medium problems amount to larger ones which affect me so readily, causing a great impact. some things i have higher expectations for affect me as well, cos'... i feel that it's not reached. i wanna do more. =(
hope things get solved soon. but i know eventually, i'll need to make my decision, solve my own tangled emotions in my heart.
i guess i'm stressing myself too much though. but... why are so many things bothering me at the moment? or... maybe people will say it in another way. then why are you letting so many things bother you even?
and i'm sorry. i'm stopping myself.
lost. without wings to carry me onto a different level.
Closed Book At... [11:59 PM]
Thursday, November 20, 2008
i'm so so affected and upset now. although i don't know about what, how, and why. don't feel very good...
loves to da ling. i hope nothing changes. and to me, nothing is different. no opinion, impression or thinking changed. nothing at all. i guess trust is the most important.
i just hope it didn't seem the way it seemed. =( sorry. but i'm sure it's known.
and everytime i see something, i get upset.
in summary, today isn't a good day. plus no lunch, no nothing.
Closed Book At... [11:05 PM]
Sunday, November 16, 2008
some things affected me a little, unknowingly. but it shouldn't be the case at all... bah. =( nvm. shall put it at the back of my mind, hoping it'll go away.
updates on retro D&D performance at novotel!! arrhh.. the whole thing was... erm. haha. i think i didn't do well. but anyway, we enjoyed. that's most important yeah. retro ma. haha consolation to myself i guess. =P
the stage was lit up but we danced on the dance floor just below the stage. no lighting and was total darkness. sam commented maybe that made our mistakes more obvious cos' of the shadows. seems quite true. haha.
thanks nicole babe for coming down to support and video for us. our personal manager. =) sweets.
and.. it's so funny. some people at the event were crazily retro. LOL. on the other hand, we are the cheapo modified dancer retro. HAHA.
shall put up some pics! darkness though.
serious stretching? look at da ling's arms! (and my shockingly quite slim body here. HAHA)
fever!
retro night!
and... happy birthday to dearest mummy today! love her much much. =)
she's so funny. i complained to her that day about her taking out my mrt card and not replacing with another one, causing me to miss my train. and since i've been going home late, we didn't communicate much.
the next morning as i woke to go to work, i saw a note on the table.
it said 'HAVE MRT in your money pouch why don't have', accompanied with an badly drawn ugly crying face. it was so funnily cute can. =) mrt? in my money pouch? HAHA.
boo. i just wanna rest! let the thing affecting me go away please. bah. it's like still on my mind after typing all those above about everything else. =( whyyyyyy!! nights.
random. i love da ling, clonie and.. calvin. =)
Closed Book At... [12:50 AM]
Sunday, November 09, 2008
my sister went crazy just now with a very friendly 'whatever' i said. i casually mentioned it's quite late... and i'm tired.
i told her since i can't watch the tv in her room cos' she's watching, i'll watch another day, whatever. it was in the MOST common normal friendly tone! i headed out and the screams came.
'i HATE people who 'whatever' me!!!' =/
erm.. i'm like. woah. like some horror movie behind me, uenxpected.
so tired. so many stuff going on currently. my mind's feeling kinda blank cos' of all the overwhelming things. can't even squeeze out time for anything else. mood.... relatively low? i guess.
sessioned this afternoon. love da ling's choreo. =) and then was reggae. didn't dare to do the backroll thingy so yea.. another group. did some floorwork and knees hurt terribly. formation too. everything was a mess of my life! haha. it's gonna become better.
and i hope fri's performance goes well. a little afraid. =( so many things. so little time.
suddenly randomly remembered an incident. do you still remember that day at tampines? there was a reason behind it. a short story i never told you.
but now... it's no point. no meaning. no significance.
then again... i wonder why i even blog about it. haha.
i want to embrace my bed and patrick now. =)
Closed Book At... [11:41 PM]
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
I'm starving now!
Mum commented that I don't look very healthy recently. =( somehow, I feel it too.
Been so tired, esp these two days. Just started work and i'm so exhausted already!
I'll hang in there cos I just wanna do what I love to do. But sometimes it's bad cos I don't know my limits.
And I can never bear to give up something I love... Unless I am being given up on.
Dance will never give up on me until the day I choose to give it up.
Closed Book At... [12:23 AM]
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