Monday, March 31, 2008
sick. not feeling very well. didn't go for dance today. unsure if it's cos' of my physical condition or mental state that i feel so weak and very very tired.
feel really bad.. cos' no matter what, i just wanna do my ultimate best. but can't today. sorry to the rest... =( will turn up the next few days and work hard k.
after feeling a little better, i surfed around and started applying for a couple of jobs via mail, sending my resume. those are okay choices for a vacation job.. but hopefully my salary requirement is not too high for them. been searching through newspapers everday too, but ads there are kinda limited.
my phone went haywire today. no one could get me and it keeps directing them to the mailbox. but my phone isn't off. yeah.. and i couldn't receive a single sms the entire day. could send messages, but sorta uncontactable. hope it's gonna be fine soon.. =(
i wonder... if those days and situations were... simply a facade.
Closed Book At... [8:07 PM]
Sunday, March 30, 2008
i really enjoy your company... wonder why.
i guess i'm kinda in a mess some way or another. my friends too. just don't let the mess tangle us yeah. hope things sort out themselves. =)
yays. gonna dance soon. =) haha recently my family has been pretty worried about me, in a funny way.
while on my way home a few days back, i passed by a pasar malam near my home area! so i called home to ask if mummy wants any chomp. she said she's full, so nope, then she hung up. after seconds, she called again... to warn me.
'if not hungry don't eat horh, later you become fat!'
haha very funnily cute right. daddy told me similar stuff too. yep i really know! cos' they understand that i won't be having much dance any soon. haha. but it's not a groundless worry, since i've been eating alot of nice food recently. maybe she noticed too. haha. gotta control! i will eat healthy!
TRY. haha. but really must la. cos' i don't wanna be fatter than how i am already now! slimmer can. fatter, absolute no-no. =((
been staying up to do stuff. and i'm kinda happy happy with many things that i've completed! =) but... time to tune my body clock back, cos' i think my skin's worsening and getting dryer! not to forget the panda eyes too. =(
Closed Book At... [1:38 AM]
Thursday, March 27, 2008
i need to get away. my head hurts. cos' i bumped my head today and i'm now having a bad headache. i feel very unwell.
i'm afraid something will happen. the head bump seems to be bigger and hurts even more now. i'm scared.. cos' i feel so weak.
why do you always come to my mind when i'm at my lowest... and you never fail to bring a smile to my face.
Closed Book At... [12:22 AM]
Sunday, March 23, 2008
i'm worried. =(
Closed Book At... [1:20 AM]
Friday, March 21, 2008
am feeling quite numb.. or is it that i take things much easier now? i don't know what i should do actually.. really confused.. as you mentioned, perhaps there's really a gap... which is starting to become clearer.
afraid feelings are different as compared to the past, seems to be slanting too. but i guess i'm thinking less nowadays. it should be a good thang?
and really wanna thank certain people... that i really cheered up quite abit whenever anything happens.. =)
time for a job too! wanna find something fun.. haha.. was contemplating cinema job.. seems fun yeah. but not really in the monetary aspect. haha.. may be finding job with danny, at least there's company!
still not used to days without fidgeting! (dancing.. lol) =P
Closed Book At... [11:26 PM]
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
concert's over.. to me, things went quite smoothly and it was a blast! but suddenly it comes harsh on me that trainings were times that mean so much. how everyone worked so hard together, piecing every little detail to the final big show. really wanna say a big big thanks to everyone, esp. jean darlin. it's been so tough on her, putting in so much effort to ensure nothing goes wrong.
thanks to special people who cared for me and made times so enjoyable... foong, jean, pris, weiqiang, sam, loren, nicole... lotsa love! and of cos', gin and ryan for putting up with us all the time, and never giving anyone of us up. this concert made me admire and appreciate them so much more. love them loads! =) also, thanks to everyone who played a part in making this show a success.
am missing those times real bad.. on the last day of concert, the emotions hit me real hard. the sadness made my heart sink, and it was the day i cried so much after a concert ended. never before.. perhaps cos' it's my last year.. i'm so afraid things will change.
yes, people tell me it's for sure. and sometimes you just can't keep holding on... gotta learn to let go. but is it gonna be easy, after we've created these memories together? and thanks to beloved clonie for the big hug which i needed...
i refuse to let go of these people and the times we had. will keep holding on till the day i really can't... i hope i can cos' i want to, badly.
i've learnt alot this whole time, training with everyone. i wanna dance. more more and more. despite the tiring trainings, they add on to the significant memories, esp. senior's trainings at osch till late.. those times were draining, but fun. everyone looked so lethargic. but i bet no one would mind going through the same thing again. at least i wouldn't. =)
lovely clonie who's always there for me.
loving bagnagnas together! haha.
i love pris!! =)
kissie kissie. showing our love!
breakers say HAHHH!
lol. miss perky butt.
the mannequins. haha.
my desired mr stylist.
mr power siaaaaa! haha.
the guys!
yes, they were good times. but... in one aspect it didn't turn out so well. i'm sorry if it's cos' of these trainings that you feel we've drifted apart and i treat you as someone who don't exist.
it's not true though.. i do not feel this way. but i know that to you, the trainings have caused a gap in our relationship cos' of us not really communicating. i'm sorry for making you feel this way, but i didn't mean it.. and i'm afraid the feelings are slanting. confused. guess it's good that you went for a holiday.. for you to have some time alone with your friends, and most importantly, away from me too. i'm sorry if i ever made you tired. just really hope you enjoy yourself without me around...
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