Thursday, February 17, 2011
Neglected many things lately, due to school everyday, this new work, and lastly, just being unwell.
Thoughts off my mind in summary after 4 months of not writing here. LOVE 9p so much, millions millions. They are the people I have known for 9 years, the people who make me smile and laugh like a silly willy, the people I can show my true self to anytime without being the least bit self conscious.
Been particularly sad over my bella wella cos’ she has left for SH to study for a long long time. She’s the dancer who I can be soooo crazy with, dancing my heart all out, laughing at her jokes, doing a thousand left-and-then-right isolations but still feel it’s so fun.
She’s the person who motivates me to dance more. She’s the person who makes me giggle in class/trainings all the time. She’s the person who inspired me to dance everything within me all out and just let go. I think she subconsciously succeeded in squeezing more personality out of the way I dance, cos’ she’s such a genuine person. And I don’t think there’s ever a time with her that ever ever made me feel upset (other than that time after recital we cried and cried like nobody’s business with kosmic and our beloved kos due to her departure soon).
Even at that moment, I knew that I will miss her so much. And now, she’s really left and will only be back in 6 months. It’s ok, I will keep motivating myself to dance, cos’ I have to dance for her, while she studies hard there.
She's definitely someone I have never regretted knowing, never regretted fainting (during the vampire recital), cos’ that was what sparked our friendship. Bella and Edward. Yes, her not very funny joke but I still laughed like a crazy woman.
I MISS MARCIALLYN.
Closed Book At... [5:23 PM]
Monday, October 18, 2010
quick update. busy busy me, like a bumblebee.
lost touch with this long lost world cos' i'm busy in my busy world.
work, school, tests, assignments, dance trainings for shows/performances, and dance classes.
i'm tired. but no choice. gonna hang in there and i'll do everything well!
some recent happenings somehow affected me quite a bit. i wonder why. and that caused a sudden drop in my confidence. shouldn't be the case.
whee. i think i need some time to relax though. and i am thinking of a trip soon, with my 500bucks travel voucher.
recent amazing classes - to toxic and crazy in love! =) loving it.
Closed Book At... [2:33 AM]
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
what is it? =(
don't feel so good about dance recently. but i just can't tell what's wrong.
self expectations too high? or just really not meeting my own reachable standards, which is bad. everything feels like it can be so much better.
group wise, i feel we can be much more together when we dance. something's lacking. maybe we haven't cleaned up enough together in a group? it feels like alot more can come out of this, but just not getting there yet.
i know it can be done.
i want a boomz. i strive for a boomz.
not the usual boomz but... BOOOOOOOMZ for myself, for the group.
thank you so much to fredy kosman for everything he's done for us. really appreciate his time, effort and patience. of course, his golden encouragements too, cos' he truly believes in us.
happy birthday nicole!
our theme was sweeeeeeet. and it really is!
victory.
i shall sleep soon. i'm so tired and really famished!!
something's wrong when i sleep so early. but anyway, i need to save my eyebags.
Closed Book At... [12:54 AM]
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
outrageous sketchy job opportunity yesterday. the guy told me i have a high chance.
i received a message from a mike and he mentioned that 'his style' is to message and ask questions before calling. his first questions were, 'do you smoke/drink/have a tattoo and are you attached?'.
i asked for his company profile instead of replying. he told me he's in a foreign bank industry. soon after, i replied and answered his few weird questions. then he called and chatted with me for 45 mins, telling me about himself, the job, dress sense, looks & ego, places i'll be going to, people i'll meet and benefits.
on top of the basic 15/hour which will increase over time, everything's provided - transportation, meals, even shopping allowance. and a credit card before events for getting new dresses and any other stuff. that's how 'he likes to take care of his staff'.
it's being a VERY personal assistant. job scope includes understanding the boss inside out, being there for him, planning his schedule, following him closely everywhere for meetings/functions/private events at posh places (e.g. yatch, sentosa cove, penthouse... etc), meeting other directors, socialising and even having to dress to his liking, which he specified no pants allowed in the office (though he said it doesn't have to be very formal).
he even asked me to describe the kind of dresses i would wear for events, and the kind of clothes/length of skirts i would possibly wear in the office.
according to him, it's basically a simple high profile job. to add on, he has a whole floor of the building to himself... and his personal assistant.
he's supposed to be an australian but... his english isn't that fantastic and he really doesn't sound like one.
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we talked to gin for quite some time yesterday and she made us think alot. generally, about our lives, our problems and our past.
it made me realise it's what we've been through that change our mindset and make us who we are now - stronger, better and wiser.
if things didn't happen, people don't go through the down periods of life, they might still be stuck in the rut, living in the shadows of their past, and won't be who they are today.
it's the process of recovery that matures us and we find ourselves back again. after everything passes, we live happier, better and stronger.
thank you my bb. =)
for being so thoughtful and selfless always. please stop thinking and saying you're not good enough for me cos' i'm gonna punish you severely (you know how). you should be afraid now. haha.
it's almost a year.
time is zoom zoom this year.
and it's good when our one year anniversary is on one of our birthdays. cos'... can combine the celebration and it also means... save cost! wahahaha.
i am so funnily CHEAPO.
Closed Book At... [1:43 PM]
Saturday, August 07, 2010
our recent pushcart in tp!
good sales but i brought way tooooo little stuff. regret not bringing more but lugging the luggage was too draining. and i was so dumb not to realise that i could drag my luggage effortlessly cos' a pulley existed. only found out upon reaching school. haha.
it was even tougher when my journey was from bukit panjang to tampines - in dam high HEELS. having to stand around the cart in those, and then dragging the luggage in town just to have dinner isn't fun at all.
though opening a stall is quite fun.. we know we can't have it everyday! we were already so tired in one day!
our surprisingly quite nicely decorated stall, with big boss behind.
clonie. our lovely helper.
love meiqi's $10 pink backpack! which i regret not buying.
fashion disaster. wearing our own products. but qiqi said i look like tai mei!! though i love my new dress and my long awaited online suede boots!
suntec trainings seem fine. gonna have more trainings soon.
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i really hope the happiness i see is genuine. i want it to last for you.
Closed Book At... [7:36 PM]
Thursday, August 05, 2010
i'm jobless but i am so busy. i wonder why.
dance and dance and eat and eat. everything costs so much.
this explains why i keep fretting over having no money. and it's a fact that my money is decreasing at an alarming rate!
should be starting a job soon. but, now i'm still cashless! haha.
new cap. hey, it's only costs one digit! =/
Closed Book At... [2:04 AM]
Saturday, July 24, 2010
recent schedule packed with performance trainings, competition trainings and open classes.
performance is over! fuuuuuun. 
couture
we all had an artistic 'photoshoot'. and this is mine. agony! haha.
after the performance, we took a walk in search for food. our final choice was restaurant/cafe place called chicken up, korean fried chicken feast which came with a jug of heineken. our jaws dropped. haha. and so... BOTTOMS UP! my heart raced and felt the heat almost immediately.
yumseng!
i'm good. i went straight home. i was so lazy to move and i just lay in bed and camwhored.
evidence showed that i was supposed to bathe. haha.
performance make up
i wish i had such loooong natural lashes.
and tomorrow... is audition!
i gotta calm myself. there's really nothing to lose. just go all out, do it, and hope for the best!
my shirt. i always meet mr wrong. haha
Closed Book At... [10:27 PM]