Wednesday, April 28, 2010
I believe that friendship was only true just cos' you had feelings for me.
'If true happiness lies with me, I'll still always be there to make you happy.'
Everything said were all lies.
True friends aren't only concerned about their own happiness.
And I should've guessed people are always selfish, no matter how true they were before, how much they promised you before.
In my world, promises are always broken.
I hope this period of my life just tides over soon.
I'm kinda glad I'm partying later. Bye world.
Closed Book At... [9:37 PM]
Sunday, April 25, 2010
it was a weird sat night out.
last minute, random, and late.
late dinner at liang court without me,
on our way to next random last minute destination.
ben and jerry's at dempsey. comfort food. =)
the environment.
1st step: get cosy.
2nd step: go crazy.
advertising potential
my attempt
innocence in action
according to qiqi, too annoying and looks pornstarish.
went from dempsey to chinatown area, wanted to have a view/show of our lifetimes. but... long queueeeee which didn't seem to be moving at all. today isn't a good day.
headed to east coast area, popping by cars nicely parked at secluded corners. but most were either fully covered or misted up (for a purpose of cos'). didn't catch anything. boring. maybe today just isn't a good day.
last stop. they nearly brought me to geylang for good food. if that's the case, it would be my virgin trip there.
in the end, it was simpang bedok, not a place i frequent. tasty prata, and raaz with his horror stories of piaopiaos. meeting py there was an absolute surprise after his countless destinations with his friends around singapore too.
reporting the time: 6.25am. and i'm still here.
it's weird. i'm starting to wonder if you're concerned for me or yourself, just wanting to make yourself feel better and less guilty. but no worries, now that i'm not a part of your concern, does it really matter? just as long as you're happy, i'm ok.
and you can't force me to feel any less or change how i'm feeling. cos' you're not me, you won't understand. and i'm not you. my feelings can't just disappear, as much as i wish they would. there's nothing you can do. sorry.
i don't know how to tell you things anymore... i just know i have to show you i'm ok.
Closed Book At... [5:06 AM]
Friday, April 23, 2010
I can't believe I bravely attempted to swim today, with my shades and all. And I woke as early as 6am to teach. Anyhows, class didn't feel so good today. Or was it just me?
My swimming attempt only lasted for... half an hour, and I gave up. =(
Then wandered alone in town till evening. It's been 2 days of lonely shopping but it actually seems fine to me. Getting used to it I guess.
And finally, hello to our longawaited xlb feast.
so spicy it gave us all pouty red hot chilli pepper lips.
mmmmmm. satisfying.
the epic jump shot with big round tummies.
I'm sleepy. Interview later... And I'm feeling kinda jittery, not knowing what to expect. =( Really hope it's not what I'm thinking it is.
Some things always cause me to feel this way, spacing out for the longest time ever.
All in all, I'm still always here for you. Though I know, I'm not part of your worries at all, anymore.
Can my feelings just freaking go away......... please.
Closed Book At... [1:37 AM]
Monday, April 19, 2010
I'm really just not good enough.
I should stay away for a while.
Nobody knows. No one understands. And sometimes it's just hard to find someone to talk to.
I hate these tears now and I hate myself. And hate how my expressions are written all over.
Dt asked me an important question. The answer is a yes. Somehow deep within me, I'm happy you've found yourself.
I know, I've lost mine. But I'm still searching...
And I've come to a point that I don't really care what people think of me anymore. People who know me, know me for who I am, and who I'm not. Others, judge for all you like.
Bottomline is. I still care for people I care about so much.
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No matter what, I guess the only thing I'm grateful about is... this epic night.
Thank you.
waiting
epic crew
cutiecutie
clonie love
cosy up
I'm tired. I missed that you.
And thanks mel.
Closed Book At... [2:16 AM]
Friday, April 16, 2010
Dance. Trying not to let the fear sink in.
A short talk with my ex colleagues recently made me realise my casual comment of a photo in my camera could say a million words. They said it was my tone. A few simple meaningless words, and the emotion came through so strongly? Or was it the look in my eyes?
Hello little elmo, I feel alone.
And I'm tired. Physically and emotionally. =(
Tired of searching for you.
Tired of not knowing what else I can do for you.
Maybe just tired of not seeing you in you anymore.
But somehow, I'm still having that courage. =)
Closed Book At... [12:32 AM]
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
random pictures of that sleepless night. the first chalet i didn't drink a single sip at all.
on way there
before the noisy games
clonie's way of killing time at 6am in the morning.
my way of killing time. and watching gossip girl
awesome picture taken on sdd prelims.
i just need someone to tell me i can do it.
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and i do think py is quite a nice guy after all. =)
--
i miss overseas pees. =(
Closed Book At... [12:40 AM]
Friday, April 09, 2010
I've lost in every single thing, forgotten in every possible way.
That friend, and the special meaning of 'girl'... I remember it used to feel so warm.
Somehow, I wish I didn't have such strong feelings for you all along... It would have been easier.
And how ironic when you used to ask me not to 'throw you away'.
--
SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING SOMETIMES.
BUT HANG IN THERE.
I need more strength to pull through.
Someone, please just leave with me...
you, and your silliness i love.
all erased.
Closed Book At... [2:12 AM]
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