Wednesday, March 17, 2010
That hostile nonchalence.
I don't even fit into the 'friend' category.
Some things are so clear, clear enough to hurt so badly, silently.
I thought it just wasn't you to not notice, but you really didn't. Not the
slightest bit of concern.
And it's so weird. I once asked myself if I would and could accept everything about you. I was just so sure that I wouldn't mind a single thing at all.
But now, things are just as simple as what it seems and that's it.
I had so much faith all along, believing it wouldn't end this way so easily.
But I was wrong. It just did, straight smack in my face.
Closed Book At... [11:48 AM]
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Sometimes, people just can't seem to give chances. Afraid? Maybe.
Or sometimes, people just care too much about how others think.
Recent real life examples and some people I talked to, made me realise that if a love is true, anything can be overcome. People learn to accept mistakes and imperfections about the other party and still come together strong, or even stronger than before. It's so heartwarming to know that, yet disheartening cos' it didn't happen to me. Was the love true?
If someone really means so much and you still care, you wouldn't be so nonchalent. Or just cos' there's someone else in your eyes now that the previous person cease to exist totally, in such a short time frame?
I'm not someone who gets over and forgets that easily. I really can't. But it just seems easy for you, and I never knew that.
To think that person who took away all my pain ended up to be someone who hurt me most, maybe without even realising it.
No matter what, you're not good for nothing. At least not in my eyes, maybe it doesn't even make a difference though.
But it's ok, now I know it all. I won't ruin your life anymore.
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Everyone was busy with many things, so I was doing stuff alone most of the time and it made me think alot.
I was almost locked in the backstage.
And I received an unexpected call at the most unexpected time.
Closed Book At... [12:12 AM]
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
I really didn't think much of it... Now I realise I'm being taken advantage of. It just didn't seem so easy to reject, but I should have. I'm stupid.
Maybe cos' there isn't this someone anymore, my immediate outlet whom I always talk to about every single thing the second it happens.
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That ever so precious smile. You might not know, but it still means so much to me.
Seek comfort in all the good things.
Though the emptiness in my heart sometimes kills. I just feel and know. It's someone else now.
Sometimes ignorance is bliss.
Closed Book At... [12:39 AM]
Thursday, March 04, 2010
jim beam global asia performance! =)
must show the shirt. haha.
my dope performance hair
... by da ling
it's all ice!!
mirror camwhore
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My knuckle’s still pain from the blow months ago. And injury’s killing me when I dance.
I miss how you always gave me that tingling sense of anxiety when I was with you. And I'm sure you knew that. I miss the happiness and little surprises. I miss all the never-ending goodbyes and goodnights which still seemed like yesterday. That girl who once had a place in your heart. Genuine feelings, nothing close to guilt or anything else.
But I guess after everything, I’ve lost all my feelings. As much as I want to, my heart doesn’t remember how it felt like anymore.
I need something to make me human again.
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And… byebye workspace. It’s so soon, like in such a hurry. Or maybe qiqi’s right, things just seem better cos’ it’s gonna be over. Anyway, all’s too late.
Closed Book At... [11:56 PM]
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