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Thank you, beloved 9p. Sorry for making you girls worry so much when you all are so busy with other stuff.

We don’t even meet often but I just know, and feel that I always form the thoughts at the back of their minds, which makes them want to spare time to just be there for me. Unknowingly, I merge into their top priorities together with stuff on-hand which could have been much more important than mere me.

Whereas others may care but somehow other important stuff gradually fills them up, and I become something random that just seems to be missing. Then slowly, forgotten about. I've learnt. People disappoint you at times you don't really expect them to. And I've come to realise how easily words are being said, but not meant.

Thanks so much, pees. Everything’s much appreciated. I admit, we don’t really meet often cos’ other than work, I lack the effort to make things happen. I’m sorry. I’m just too whirled up in my own emotional world that nothing gets in.

I don’t even want to meet people, or engage in any social activities I would normally feel hyped about, judging from the good ol’ me. But that sleepless night was lovely. I promise to try harder for you girls.

The trip wasn’t so much of the dream trip I longed for since I had 9 days of leave. Wasn’t utilized to the fullest at all. Plus, I fell really sick upon arrival. Even the medicine couldn’t help subside the fever and flu at all.

Mum just kept saying I was unlucky, always falling ill when we travel. But I’m still glad my family seems happy.


new hair, and i'm back to the old me


uncomfortable boos journey there


it was pretty cold but nice


at the hotel lobby


our arrival


to be readily checked by the casino staff


fat snacks


hiding in a confined space


hotel boredom


my hard-earned win


sis’ favourite jackpot machine which i lost so much money on. but i loved this other cute little piggie machine.


jackpot boredom


buffet breakfast


downhill


nice boos back

Merry Christmas to the loves.


decorated sai’s monkey (vanny the tranny?) with my props


more-than-just-awesome presents. sorry that i didn’t get presents for anyone this year, other than the dg-lookalike turtle i got on my trip.


higher than expectations carrot cake by dg, in an esprit box


midnight fondue, followed by cup noodles for them. but i have high tolerance due to the persistent fatty feeling i always have


a rare shot of us all


bangs frenzy

Dt dt, please give me your address, I want to post my countless self-taken shots/random photos and letters to you. I want to send you parcels. I want to visit you out of impulse someday, reach there and realise I have no winter clothes then freeze to death. If it really happens, I know you’ll lend me your snow stuff!

Wounds heal over time. They just become scars and stay for life. But at least, they wouldn’t hurt anymore.

I smiled, cos’ you should be happy now. =)

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