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maybe losing a relationship is simply losing a companion you're used to having, for the amount of time you both have been together. if that's the case, it shouldn't be that hard to recover in time.

but when it happens, it's not just a matter of having get used to this person around, and when he's gone, you just have to get re-used to not having him around.

on top of that, there's gotta be strong feelings of attraction and emotional attachment involved with that person before it's even a relationship to begin with. it's the deeply etched emotional aspect that's so painful to get over.

it's so hard to meet someone you're willing to give all your heart to.

when i look back, i know i've clearly changed. perhaps partially affected by what happened before, that i am who i am now. a confused person who'll never be able to find the past back. but that's something... i may not even want now.

i need to balance my old self with the present me. and i don't want to live under a bright surface just to cover up the rough patch.

but how things have changed and become, i really can't handle.

i treasure special people alot. esp. recently, i just realised there are some who care about me so much... thanks joyce, junwei... serene and sam. little things do mean the world to me. =) it's such small details that make a difference.

love you all, including my darlins who have always been with me. together with the valuable trust and undying belief in me. that's something i need... so much.

Closed Book At... [11:22 PM]

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