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why can't i just be treated the way i deserve? haha.. when i treat you with all my heart, the way you don't deserve. really trying my utmost best in everything, thinking for you.

love the video i made for you. =) but i don't think you even feel the same anymore. haha. and it kinda hurts just watching it again. so i refrain myself from that silly click. =/

i took so much courage to finally call, just to hear from you. it was nice hearing your voice once again. been ages...you sounded so distant, so cold, so nonchalent. you don't seem to wanna tell me anything about you anymore. asked you a few 'whys', you said, "i can do my own things."

i don't know if you even care how much the things you've said stabbed me so deeply. don't know if you wonder what's going on in my life, my health, or even me as a person. so hurting. i can't let go. i wonder how you can... no matter how you told me you're able to take things easily, are you sure it's really so easy to forget all we've been through and not having any thought about being happy together once again?

don't you even reminisce despite your busy busy schedule? i just want you to be happy, to have an unforgettable birthday. you always know i do the best for you. but are you sure you still wanna celebrate your birthday with me?

i wonder how you're really feeling... whether you're keeping your true feelings from me for some reason, or am i just deluding myself?

even if you don't care, can you just act like you're concerned for once? do you know i appreciate every little single thing now like never before? i guess you will never understand how much everything means to me.

don't just leave me alone feeling this way will you?

and thanks to you for always trying your very best to accompany me when you're so busy with other stuff, to make sure i'm fine, and always noticing i'm not ok. thanks for chatting to keep me company late at night cos' i'm always wide awake, but yet playing music for me so it's easier for me to fall asleep. appreciate your thoughts alot. =)

many thanks to clonie and jean, my da lings, who never fail to be there. i just know they are people i can rely on all the time.

and many many others who cared for me. joycelyn, for sending me long long sms which was so cute but so true. kaiwen, who kept stuffing me with cookies. and others who tried making me feel better... andreas, junwei, sam and melissa.

and mr 'OF' who accompanied me and did alot, just to make sure i'm fine.

Closed Book At... [2:09 PM]

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