[[when shit happens]]

big hole in pocket after spending on gifts! heyyy, see that coin rolling out! please pick it up! ... oops and i digress. ok my main point is i'm broke.

sometimes life doesn't go my way. actually it feels like life always doesn't go my way. or... maybe when it goes my way, i don't notice. isn't it always the case with pple? somehow, we tend to only see the bad, and neglect the good.

x'mas eve tomorrow. fun? should be. actually i don't know. haha. can't predict the future. i feel rubbishy now. hmm.. i tell pple to do things i won't dare to do. what is this man. 'just do it, if not you'll regret you never tried'.

me? will i try? i don't think so. the regrets may come later and i would really regret i never tried. but then again, thinking 'if only i had...' doesn't help. when the situation comes a second time... again, i won't try. then i regret. the vicious cycle repeats. sometimes i think.. if i had tried, i may regret too. so... rather not.

anyway, received a very shocking news today.. can't really accept it even though i already sorta expected it in the first place. strong intuition. but, when i found out it's true, i questioned myself again. is it really true? why?

actually it doesn't affect me in any way, but it's just a third person's view to the whole situation. shrugs. no comments. neither good nor bad. don't wanna judge when i'm not fit to judge. it's funny how things happen though, and how coincidental.

Closed Book At... [12:01 AM]

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